just a fragment of my life

Its hard when actually you can do something
but in the end, what you can do is just watch things change 
and disappear right before your eyes.
I was near and looking for you, i tried so many times to catch up with you
but is it because my arms ain't wide enough to hug you?
that I always miss you every night?
or it's just me who expecting too much?
without knowing that you didn't put my name in your mind at all
I wasn't counted for anything.
did you know im throwing away my pride even for the smallest chance to see you?
I'm embarassed to myself, but its not your fault
I wasn't trying to act cool, holding that shame inside
its just me, willing to take those price until one day you pay me back with your love
knowing the fact that you already got someone that fit your heart
I have to face it, and run away from heart-aching wishful thinking
I have no idea where I am, or where I'm heading to 
Still been haunted by heart-aching wishful thinking
I can't decide which way i should choose 
Is it left or right?
Do I have to be patient?
And faithfully wait for the time to come?
Or just leaving you behind buried in my past?
(Wish I could just walk straight to you)


*writing really makes me feel better :')